escaping the web of illusion

By: Kirsty

Feb 17 2010

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Category: bush magic, creatures, Daily Photos, little things


Focal Length:60mm
Shutter:1/0 sec
Camera:Canon EOS-1D Mark II

Beautiful weaver

Yesterday was  a very interesting day for me. I was in a great deal of emotional pain. I gave myself a hard time. It was as if the day was like a spider wrapping me more and more tightly in its web until I could barely breath. And the more I struggled and tried to escape, the more entangled I became. I played right into that spider’s hands, or should I say legs. The apparent source of my pain was a feeling of being trapped – by life, my circumstances, external influences, the needs of others. When I look a little more deeply I see that I was arguing with my day. It was the way it was and the more I insisted it should be different, the more trapped I became. The very thing that I was trying to escape became my focus and my experience.

I have said before that I intend to follow my heart, but it’s not possible to follow a heart that is shut down. To know what it is we truly love we have to be open-hearted with ourselves. We have to be willing to be vulnerable to the truth. The truth of what we love, and the truth of the life we have created. For most of us these two truths are very different. It can be painful to admit that we have denied what we love. Before anything can change we have to be willing to accept life exactly as it is. I have known this for a long time. Yesterday’s vivid experience of being entangled in an illusion of my own making has reminded me what it really means.

Yes, I choose to fly free. If that’s the case, then I can only launch myself into flight from this spot where I stand. If I don’t know where the launching place is then I have no hope of navigating to my chosen destination.

A wise teacher showed me that I am already everything I need to be. I already have everything I need. I am complete. We all are. The idea that there is something missing is the illusion that keeps us trapped. The way to escape that illusion was vividly demonstrated to me yesterday. Stop struggling!

6 comments on “escaping the web of illusion”

  1. The colors are gorgeous in this photo, Kirsty. I agree that we are already everything we need to be. The rest is the journey.

  2. Ah yes, the journey. So glad I’m back on it!

  3. I’m not in a War
    I’m on a Journey
    All of Us
    Struggling to Understand
    This Miracle of Life

    I was born from Perfect Love
    You were, too
    Our struggle defines Us
    Stop struggling

    Live the Love.

    Kirsty, I wrote this to remind myself when I fall into the morass of self-doubt that I am only another vehicle moving through Life — that the miracle occurs when I am the artist — that is the gift Love gives me for making the journey.

  4. Thank you so much for your beautiful poem Mollie – these are wonderful times when people who have never met, from all over the world, can share such profound and beautiful insights. I will put your lovely work of art somewhere where I can see it and it will remind me too 🙂

  5. That is a stunning piece of photography Kirsty! Sometimes you have to just roll with these feelings. Change is always painful. I’ve been down that path and been devestated in realising I have been going the wrong way. But, the main thing is to learn from it, and remember all things change – including us. ‘The finger having writ – moves on’ can’t remember who that quote is from, but it’s a good one.

  6. What a delight to be reminded – I know the quote well –

    ‘The moving finger writes,
    and having writ, moves on,
    not all they piety nor wit
    shall move it back,
    to cancel half a line,
    nor all they tears
    wash out a word of it’
    The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam

    Interestingly I own a beautiful little leather bound copy of this book that used to belong to my Grandmother (yes the very same Nana I wrote about the other day). Thank you so much for thinking of it and taking the time to remind me.

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